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Rousey thought about killing herself after losing to Holm

February 16, 2016

FILE – In this Sunday, Nov. 15, 2015 file photo, Ronda Rousey, left, and Holly Holm fight during their UFC 193 bantamweight title bout in Melbourne, Australia. Holm pulled off a stunning upset victory over Rousey in the fight, knocking out the women’s bantamweight champion in the second round with a powerful kick to the head Sunday. Ronda Rousey says she had dark thoughts after she lost her bantamweight title to Holly Holm in Australia last year, her first defeat since joining UFC, Tuesday, Feb. 16, 2016. (AP Photo/Andy Brownbill, File)

LOS ANGELES (AP) — Ronda Rousey says she had dark thoughts after she lost her bantamweight title to Holly Holm in Australia last year, her first defeat since joining UFC.

“Honestly, my thought in the medical room, I was sitting in the corner and was like, ‘What am I anymore if I’m not this?’” Rousey said Tuesday during an appearance on “The Ellen DeGeneres Show.” ”Literally sitting there thinking about killing myself. In that exact second, I’m like: ‘I’m nothing. What do I do anymore?”

Rousey told DeGeneres that her relationship with UFC heavyweight Travis Browne helped get her through.

“I looked up and saw my man, Travis, was standing there,” Rousey said. “I’m looking up at him and was just like: ‘I need to have his babies. I need to stay alive.’”

Rousey won her first 12 mixed martial arts fights — eight of them in less than a minute — before stepping into the cage against Holm in Melbourne last November. Holm finished her off with a devastating kick to the head.

Rousey told DeGeneres that she wants to be the one to beat Holm, who will make her first title defense against Miesha Tate in Las Vegas next month.